It’s sad. How we’ve grown apart. We went from not knowing each other but our names to our life story to now… Now it’s like we don’t even know each other anymore. We went from hanging out everyday of the week, going to each others’ houses, to saying “I have something else to do, maybe some other time.” It’s sad. I thought you were someone who would not walk away. But you’re just like the rest, I guess. I miss you. I really do.
I’m usually not like this. I’m usually happy, cheerful, optimistic. Just lately, only lately I’ve been drowned in negativity. Do I need to be saved? Not really. I just need someone to extend their hand, lend their shoulder and open their ears as I let out the thunderous cry and pain I’ve been holding in for quite sometime now. No, I’m not looking for pity, or sympathy.. Just help. Just a friend. Maybe a stranger.
- I miss you. So much.
- Can you just come back home already, I need you.
- Thank you for giving me better days.
- When I come home, I lock myself in my room, listen to music and cuddle with my dog.
- It’s sad, I’ve lost my motivation.
- I just want to dance.
- Where did all my true friends go?
- Can we just go back to the honeymoon stage?
All those plans, all those promises, all those things you said— what are they now? Is everything still true, or were they only true for that moment? It’s a scary thought, I admit, but I guess I just had a dire need to know all of a sudden. No. I have to know. I want to know; even when I know it’s going to hurt me in the end.
(Source: blogsecret)
Over-analyzing situations.
I always think negatively too.
I always have that ‘what if’ mentality, that I know I shouldn’t. I’m never enjoying the present because I’m always worrying about the future, or too occupied in the past. Fuck, what a habit, eh?
It just seems impossible for me to sleep now. My eyes will feel tired, my body, lost of energy and my brain fried from all this over-analyzing bullshit. But still. I still can’t seem to just close my eyes and fall asleep. Maybe it’s just a summer phase or a hidden irritation I can’t seem to figure out, but either or, it’s pissing me the fuck off.
I just want sleep. That is all. & Maybe a whole day spent with my boyfriend..
Fuck. /rant>.
